Woah! Another week has flown by. So unbelievable how fast the time goes by here. The weeks are going by insanely fast and it's hard to believe we've just finished our fifth week of lecture phase. I've been learning so much! This week our topic was on the Fear of God. We had the base director of YWAM Perth come and speak to us on it and it was a super challenging topic to discuss at times but at the same time, extremely interesting.
It's hard sometimes to get my thoughts together and focused to write something but I'm super eager to share what we've been learning here this week. We've been introduced to tons of scripture on the Fear of God and it's be such a learning experience going through it all together and having someone talk about it. I'd have to say a highlight from this week would be not having fear of men, but fear of God. In my life, I've often gone to other people on confirmation on what I should be doing instead of going to God. When I've felt convicted of doing something wrong, I've been afraid of seeking out God and instead I've gone to others and asked for direction, counsel, guidance. This week I've been practicing going to God for it and it's led me to making a ton of steps towards forgiveness and repentance towards others. When I've felt convicted of something, I spend time with Him in prayer or just waiting on His voice and it never ceases to amaze me how especially present He is in those times! This has probably been one of the most important lessons to me in my step towards healing. I'm learning how to focus on not being afraid of others judging me and what I do because the only thing I should be concerned of is if I'm honoring God in what I do. And it was that very thing that led me to making some super important decisions in regards to my life.
I'd say a low time this week was most definitely the fact that God has humbled me immensely during this time. And having to push through that was very painful and difficult to realize. I've been very prideful in how I dealt with some things and even the way I looked at situations. At first I was quite at odds with this and thought "Well no, I didn't do anything wrong in those situations." but even while telling myself that, I knew the wrong I had done was been prideful, even since then. One thing that constantly was on the forefront of my mind in the final parts of this week was the way Jesus humbled himself and washed his disciple's feet. My friend, Abby, and I were going to lead worship this past Thursday and we decided that doing this as a group together would be a good idea. It brought together an amazing feeling of unity for us and with that as a theme in my mind since then, it resulted in me taking some steps to taking down the walls of pride in my life and letting God humble me by following His voice. I can't say I like what my next steps in this are, as it takes humbling myself to others as well, but we don't live life to do the things we want. We're called to glorify God in all that we do, difficult or not.
It's been an amazing educational time here and there's always so much going on that it's hard to concentrate on a daily basis sometimes. If you could be praying for a better sense of focus for me, I would appreciate that. Also that God would continue to humble me in all the areas that I need to be humbled in and that I would keep having the willingness to follow where He is leading me and what steps I need to be taking. I have one on behalf of my best friend, who has just arrived back from her outreach yesterday and is quite jetlagged. Pray that she will be energetic and awake enough to fully participate and enjoy her last week here! :)
Love and miss you all SO much!!!
-Naomi
"The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom." - Proverbs 9:10
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